i love the term “partners”
are we dating?
are we robbing a bank?
do we run a legal firm?
are we the dedicated detectives who investigate these vicious felonies and are members of an elite squad known as the special victims unit?
"Someone asked me what home was and all I could think of were the stars on the tip of your tongue, the flowers sprouting from your mouth, the roots entwined in the gaps between your fingers, the ocean echoing inside of your ribcage."
He’s still sleeping, I always work on Sundays. I haul my bike out of the rack in the living room and out into the street. It’s getting colder.
How do you tell someone you love them?
I’m just not even sure.
Last night we biked down to harbor east. We picked up dinner from Whole Foods and sat on the docks to watch the fireworks. I saw B and his friends and thought about what I had been like as a 22 year old.
I sold my car last week. I’ve never felt better or more financially liberated. I don’t feel like any less of an adult. Tim helped me throw a bike together at the shop and has been teaching me how to ride safely through the city. There is something about self-powered transportation that makes me feel invincible. My favorite rides are on Tuesdays when we go to our Christian group meetup. This week will be my third.
I don’t drink as much anymore, I don’t hang out in bars or go to shows with bands I don’t like just because everyone else is going. I’ve been reading more and cooking more and my favorite thing about this new chapter is that I am getting to know Baltimore more and at street level. When we go places he leaves me on purpose. I meet new people and don’t feel tied down. I have four new friends that I completely adore. But I am never out of sight when we’re together.
Of course nothing is ever perfect, but I feel like I’m on the right path. If you would have told me all this a year ago, I wouldn’t have believed you.
"If you were wondering about my heart,
it is not generous, but it meets my needs, which are small and petty
and full to the brim with un-lit fireworks."
Written and directed by Jennifer Siebel Newsom, the film exposes how mainstream media contribute to the under-representation of women in positions of power and influence in America. The film challenges the media’s limited and often disparaging portrayals of women and girls, which make it difficult for women to achieve leadership positions and for the average woman to feel powerful herself.